tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78968263786626397762024-03-12T21:18:33.875-07:0030 Songs by 30Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-34824966909555225062014-12-05T09:34:00.000-08:002014-12-05T16:24:43.807-08:00(16) Pepper and Salt16) Pepper and Salt<br />
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I'm back at this!<br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1; white-space: pre-wrap;">Baby don't run from me</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1; white-space: pre-wrap;">I won't run from you</span><span id="docs-internal-guid-c57f365c-1b83-251a-54d3-aa0fc0b055a7"></span><br />
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<span id="docs-internal-guid-c57f365c-1b83-251a-54d3-aa0fc0b055a7"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Work this thing through</span></span></div>
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<span id="docs-internal-guid-c57f365c-1b83-251a-54d3-aa0fc0b055a7"><span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Heal me with your brokenness</span></span></div>
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<span id="docs-internal-guid-c57f365c-1b83-251a-54d3-aa0fc0b055a7"><span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And I’ll heal you with mine</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Heal me with tears and sweat</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">As our</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> bodies intertwine</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Animal out on a</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">limb</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I need to be s</span><span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">een </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Touch me again</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Give me what I need</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We're guilty of so many hurts</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">You bring out all of my faults</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We are fire and earth</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> pepper and salt</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I like it just spicy enough</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It heats up the roof of my mouth</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">That heat takes a whole lotta trust</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Hesitation tastes just like doubt</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Baby don't run from me</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I won't run from you</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Stay in this heat</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Work this thing through</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Heal me with your brokenness</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And I’ll heal you with mine</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Heal me with tears and sweat</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">As our</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> bodies intertwine</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Animal out on a</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">limb</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I need to be s</span><span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">een </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Touch me again</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Cambria; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Give me what I need</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We're guilty of so many hurts</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">You bring out all of my faults</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We are fire and earth</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> pepper and salt</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And nothing is black or white</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">we say mean things we don't mean</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">what's right goes wrong in the night</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I'm sorry that I can't sleep</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I need sweet relief</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">From our spicy heat</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Our salty energy</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">(GUITAR BREAK)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Baby don't run from me</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I won't run from you</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Stay in this heat</span></div>
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 16px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Work this thing through</span></span>Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-29977806137566863642014-10-13T10:41:00.002-07:002014-10-13T17:11:56.992-07:00(15) I Plan Too Much<iframe frameborder="no" height="450" scrolling="no" src="https://w.soundcloud.com/player/?url=https%3A//api.soundcloud.com/tracks/171966834&auto_play=false&hide_related=false&show_comments=true&show_user=true&show_reposts=false&visual=true" width="100%"></iframe>
Everything I thought I knew<br />
None of it is coming true<br />
And it isn't anyone's fault<br />
ohhhh but it hurts<br />
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You won't wear a bridesmaid dress<br />
The wedding plans are a mess<br />
I thought I had a plan<br />
Had one since we were ten<br />
My visions and expectations are upside down<br />
What are they worth, now?<br />
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I know I plan too much<br />
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But all the pinky swears and promises<br />
the double dares and daring plans<br />
Was none of it real?<br />
I'm trying to understand<br />
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All the dreams we whispered on the trampoline<br />
Remember when we were giggling<br />
high up there on on your round rope swing<br />
then we found the fairy colony<br />
in that tree stump in the aspen trees?<br />
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I know I plan too much<br />
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I don't need you in the wedding<br />
I don't need a wedding at all<br />
I am strong and independent<br />
I'll let those old traditions fall<br />
I'm writing my own story<br />
You're writing your own too<br />
I'm glad for your new baby<br />
she'll need you more than I do<br />
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Those gold friendship necklaces we wore<br />
were cracked apart<br />
Your piece joined to mine<br />
we were perfectly designed<br />
for that time<br />
Our friendship will always<br />
live deep down in my heart<br />
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I know I plan too much<br />
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<br />Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-22955825386761045242014-05-21T10:40:00.001-07:002014-05-21T21:37:07.183-07:00(13) Broken DishesIt's incredible how many memories my mom's sake set and my grandpa's tea cups hold. The memories they hold are more important then their ability to hold food or drink.<br />
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I am moving next week and beginning to consider what I can let go of, both on the shelves and in my own soul.<br />
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At 13 songs now...I hope for another 1 or 2 today.... 13 more days! But if I don't make it by June 4th, fine, because this is for me.<br />
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Love from Mindy<br />
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There is a gallery of broken dishes at our house</div>
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Each one is like a shining hope transformed into a doubt</div>
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You bound them up with rubber bands and set them on the
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I’ll fix them when I can, you said, I don’t need any help</div>
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It’s time to let them go</div>
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There will be more broken dishes</div>
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It’s time to let them go</div>
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Just like all of our near misses</div>
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Let them go</div>
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We broke one of the sake cups my mom bought long ago</div>
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We cracked off some porcelain, black hair, yellow kimonos</div>
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Mom got it in England but it was made in Japan</div>
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You say someday you’ll glue it back together again</div>
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It’s time to let them go</div>
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There will be more broken dishes</div>
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It’s time to let them go</div>
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Just like all of our near misses</div>
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Let them go</div>
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The handles on the teacups didn’t want to stay attached</div>
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They came off during accidents or another shouting match</div>
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Blue snowflakes dance across the edge of those chipped white
cups</div>
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My grandpa gave me those and I miss him oh so much</div>
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It’s time to let them go</div>
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There will be more broken dishes</div>
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It’s time to let them go</div>
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Just like all of our near misses</div>
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Let them go</div>
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There’s a gallery of broken dishes at our house</div>
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Each one is like a shining hope transformed into a doubt</div>
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Come my love, let’s take them all on down from the shelf</div>
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My love you are forgiven and now I need your help</div>
Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-61418532726685997872014-05-09T16:59:00.002-07:002014-05-09T16:59:54.799-07:00(12) Look CloserAfter seeing Fruitvale station, I've been thinking about my own prejudices. The ones that are way down deep that I don't mean to have, but do. Here's the 12th..<br />
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I want to look closer at you<br />
I want to look closer at you<br />
If I look closer at you<br />
maybe you will stop and look closer at me too<br />
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I confess I have only skimmed the surface<br />
I haven't really seen what's underneath<br />
I confess I was afraid that you would hurt us<br />
that's why I have not dared to look beneath<br />
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I want to look closer at you<br />
I want to look closer at you<br />
If I look closer at you<br />
Maybe you will stop and look closer at me too<br />
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I confess I feel some trepidation<br />
Opening my wounds for you to see<br />
I am sure we'll have nervous conversation<br />
As our tender trust begins to breathe<br />
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I want to look closer at you<br />
I want to look closer at you<br />
If I look closer at you<br />
Maybe you will stop and look closer at me too<br />
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I declare this your holy invitation<br />
To reach around the bounds of hate and fear<br />
I declare this your blessed inspiration<br />
To open up your eyes and your ears<br />
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The divine in me wants to touch the divine in you<br />
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<br />Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-19280387269783114412014-05-06T19:47:00.005-07:002014-05-10T08:11:54.502-07:00(11) The Committee of Sleep11. Same day as 10. Now we might be getting somewhere...<br />
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<br />
The committee of sleep<br />
Mine<br />
Meets every night between<br />
my dark purple sheets<br />
trasforming rough dead bard<br />
into soft green moss cool to the the touch<br />
ONLY<br />
lately<br />
The committee of sleep<br />
seems to be going out for breakfast at 2 am<br />
Leaving me alone<br />
I can smell the maple syrup<br />
they are pouring over their<br />
buckwheat waffles<br />
The smell is heavy<br />
it's sweet and strong<br />
But I cannot eat<br />
<br />
I do not feel like eating<br />
Instead I lie between the sheets<br />
rustling -<br />
<br />
My body becomes a coiled spring<br />
ready to explode<br />
<br />
Next to me lies a sleeping buddha<br />
peaceful until I wake him up with my rustling<br />
my wandering toe or my pound of the pillow<br />
The smell becomes sour -<br />
<br />
I lie itchy, wishing it was morning<br />
<br />
desperate<br />
<br />
Come back committee of sleep<br />
All I do is think about<br />
how dirty these sheets are<br />
All I can do is go mad<br />
until morning<br />
<br />
Tomorrow night<br />
I hope I'll be so tired that the committee of sleep<br />
will not want to go out for waffles without me<br />
I thought they were on my side<br />
I think they are<br />
But I miss the early mornings<br />
getting up with the dawn<br />
<br />
When my sleep committee refuses to remain present<br />
I face the mornings wanly<br />
at 9 or 10 am<br />
Feeling shocked and sheepish that<br />
it happened once again<br />
<br />
It's hard<br />
<br />
There are so many breakfast places<br />
the sleep committee wants to try<br />
<br />
All I can do is try againMindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-35905429285532362262014-05-06T19:37:00.004-07:002014-05-06T19:37:47.981-07:00(10) Birds Sang, then I slept10. Sleep theme. Getting less afraid of the critic. That is all.<br />
<br />
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Last night I didn't sleep until the birds sang<br />
Early in the morning, almost dawn<br />
I laid awake they sang outside my window<br />
And my thoughts tumbled low and deep and long<br />
<br />
In the wee, small hours of the morning<br />
I live through all my terrors and my dreams<br />
What once was comfort's now's restriction<br />
as I toss and turn under wadded sheets<br />
<br />
My partner lays beside me like a buddha<br />
I don't want to disturb but still I do<br />
It's just that I feel hot and helpless<br />
when you can sleep and I'm stuck watching you<br />
<br />
In the wee, small hours of the morning<br />
I live through all my terrors and my dreams<br />
Through every promise that's been broken<br />
and every itchy hurt that's in between<br />
<br />
Last night I couldn't sleep until the birds sand<br />
Early in the morning, almost dawn<br />
In a way I admit that I was grateful<br />
for the meant the dark night was almost gone<br />
<br />
1/3 of the way...Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-28120334919054491462014-05-02T18:39:00.000-07:002014-05-02T18:39:06.917-07:00(9) Dear Rejection...9. That is all. And this little ditty...this little personification of "Rejection."<br />
<br />
M<br />
<br />
<br />
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Dear Rejection…<o:p></o:p></i></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Ah rejection dear rejection</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dear sweet rejection</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Please don’t talk down to me</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Don’t push me down the slope</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And please do take note</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
My muse and I just eloped </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
We’re makin’ better things now</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Than you ever have known</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I will not be here</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Hope it’s not too cold alone</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Ah rejection dear rejection</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dear sweet rejection</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Please don’t talk down to me</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Don’t push me down the slope</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And please do take note</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
My muse and I just eloped</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Me and my muse</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
We’re going on a honeymoon</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
We’ll rub our feet on the sandy beach</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
We’ll stay up all night if we like<br />
We'll eat escargot if it floats our boat</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
We’ll sleep in with all our might<br />
<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
Ah rejection dear rejection</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dear sweet rejection</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Please don’t talk down to me</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Don’t push me down the slope</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And please do take note</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
My muse and I just eloped</div>
</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dear rejection --</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
So sad you cannot see a sunrise this bright</div>
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Spoken: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Wish you were
here</i></div>
Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-22117774499582189562014-04-21T16:15:00.001-07:002014-04-21T16:17:54.783-07:00(8) WildernessSuddenly I'm at 8 songs... this is my first two-song posting day. (!)<br />
<br />
This is one of those scribblings in a journal from a couple years ago that wouldn't leave me alone. First I just had some of the words and I sang them on a porch for someone who I don't think liked it very much. But even then, I didn't care. This is one of those songs that I never cared what anyone thought about it and still don't really. In it, I affirm my right to go into the wilderness to figure out who I really am. I affirm my right to run away, when necessary. And yours, too.<br />
<br />
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I am ready for the wilderness<br />
And I am not ashamed<br />
I cannot be tamed<br />
I'm not done<br />
I've found some kindness in the wilderness<br />
Wild mothers pour their gifts<br />
I want to give you some of this<br />
When you come<br />
<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
Runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
<br />
So come and find me in the wilderness<br />
I am drinking from this spring<br />
I am taking everything as it comes<br />
There's forgiveness in the wilderness<br />
My arms around this oak<br />
The trees become my cloak<br />
and I run<br />
<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
Runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
<br />
And I don't know where I'm going but that's okay<br />
I don't know where I going but that's okay<br />
Step by step I'm finding my way<br />
<br />
I'm not hiding in the wilderness<br />
I am gathering some food<br />
I am searching out the clues to<br />
where I'm from<br />
There is darkness in the wilderness<br />
but I can hear my voice<br />
better without the noise<br />
and the sun<br />
<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
Runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
I am runnin' away and runnin' towards<br />
<div>
<br /></div>
And I don't know where I'm going but that's okay<br />
I don't know where I going but that's okay<br />
Step by step I'm finding my way<br />
<br />Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-62164102351953276962014-04-21T15:51:00.000-07:002014-04-21T15:51:06.762-07:00(7) You will Find Your Way<div class="MsoNormal">
Dear Listeners,</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Here is number 7. I was working on the song about antifractuosity, but then this came out. I'm having serious thoughts about embarking on a real adventure next year that involves lots of mountains, desert, lakes, rivers and yes, bears and ticks for sure. That plan and this new song are works in progress...just like me. :-)</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find your way</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You might not see just how</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Keep walking just the same</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Put one foot ahead of the other</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Sisters and Brothers let’s go</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
One step forward around the bend</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
What view will you see then? Who knows.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find your way</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You might not see just how</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Keep walking just the same</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
There are secret mountains </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
turquoise lakes with fountains </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
carved from the rocks and the wood</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And you have to go find them </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You have to go find them</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Even if no one thinks you should</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You’re not most frightened of the ticks or the bears</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Don’t abandon your dreams and give in to fear</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You can wade through the rivers you don’t have to drown</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You can hike ‘cross the ice chutes without slipping down</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find your way</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You might not see just how</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Keep walking just the same</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And if you’re gonna quit</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Do it on a sunny day</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And if you’re gonna quit</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Do it when your blisters heal</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And if you’re gonna quit</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Do it when you’ve quenched your thirst</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Regret lasts a long lonely time</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You will find your way</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You might not see just how</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Keep going just keep going</div>
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Follow the path</div>Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-48853859900097642532014-04-14T13:45:00.002-07:002014-04-14T17:30:24.013-07:00(6) Scarred PlacesEvery other day. That's what I've got to aim for now. But this is really not about perfect gems the whole point of the this is to get away from my inner critic...so I declare that fragments are okay. Single lines are ok. Older songs that I've reworked are ok. You are ok, no matter what anyone says. :-)<br />
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The places that are scarred<br />
wind up harder than they were<br />
before the fall<br />
oh-oh- ohhh<br />
<br />
The places that are scared<br />
wind up harder than they were<br />
before the fall<br />
oh-oh- ohhh<br />
<br />
So now instead averting my eyes<br />
when I go by<br />
the building where I was hurt<br />
I will hold my head up high<br />
I'll gaze proud and smirk<br />
<br />
I'm not hard<br />
I'm strong<br />
I'm not hard<br />
I'm bold<br />
I'm not hard<br />
I'm strong<br />
I'm not hard<br />
I'm bold.<br />
<br />Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-37609455098468983562014-04-06T21:42:00.002-07:002014-04-06T21:43:45.767-07:00(5) The Lightning Show<div class="MsoNormal">
I said to Eric yesterday, early early in the morning, "I can still do it. It's only April 5th." Eric said, "Yes. You can. Especially if they aren't are perfect gems..." Here's 5 out of 30... 60 more days left for 25 more songs....</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
I don’t know what I think about God these days</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I don’t know who to trust or when to be afraid</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
because sometimes my intuition’s wrong</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
That’s why I had to write this song</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
But what I truly know I know</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Is that I used to watch the lightning show</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
The dust kicks up in the desert suburb</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I’m called inside<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>by
my brown-haired mother</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
The wind chimes start goin' crazy mad </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I’ll wait on the porch with my silver-haired dad</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
As the mountains get shrouded with purple clouds</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
We smell the rain before it ever comes down</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
We swimming in the pregnant air there’s fire up there</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
There’s sparks in the purple clouds and in my static hair</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
It was better than ice cream, better than TV,</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
perched on the
sofa watchin' the lightning show</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
from my family’s picture window</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I think that the lightning show comes</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
With all its thunder</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
To say: You can be loud you are allowed to blunder</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To prove it’s
ok to be speak out</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And I think God telling me it’s allowed</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
She’s saying: Everyone should be able to speak out</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
He’s saying: Girls like you should be allowed to be loud</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You are allowed to pour to weep to flash and to explode</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>to crash to
rumble and to moan</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You are allowed run away or you can stay</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You are allowed to have false alarms and to find the right
arms to keep you warm</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
You are allowed to change your mind any any old time</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<o:p>And if you are wrong you're still allowed to write your songs </o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<o:p><br /></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Sometimes your intuition fails</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
And you are left, shivering in the hail</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
But you are still allowed to be loud</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Everyone should be able --- to speak out</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
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It was better than ice cream, better than TV,</div>
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perched on the
sofa watchin' the lightning show</div>
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from my family’s picture window</div>
Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-61097932159224338602014-03-26T11:44:00.000-07:002014-03-26T11:44:31.195-07:00(4) The MountainHello Listeners,<br />
<br />
I'm writing you from a little town close to Santa Cruz, called Felton. We are staying with friends for a few days while we record some songs for our upcoming album. It feels like a magical fairy retreat, the tall trees spiraled with little white lights and dark wood rafters on the ceiling. Our host made us a salad the other night and pulled some miner's lettuce right out of her backyard to complete it. Each day we've driven up a windy road lined with redwoods to get to a recording studio hidden in the green trees. We got a lot done in the last two days, including modifying the last verse of this older song of mine, which makes it a new song (it feels new now!) and a co-write.<br />
<br />
Last night it rained all night and I slept so sound. This song is the fourth of thirty, 13.33%. I hope there is more coming. It's all beginning to flow more easily. I can't wait to see the rocky mountains this summer on tour. But for today, I'm content with the redwoods and the rain, the friends and good coffee...some writing, some yoga and computer work...<br />
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I have to move a mountain<br />
by tomorrow night<br />
And I don't feel ready<br />
My shoes fit too tight<br />
The heat here doesn't work<br />
You're still here so is all the hurt<br />
<br />
And I cannot move mountains<br />
But they cannot move me<br />
The age-old fight I'm fierce and bright<br />
I'm working working to find out what we need<br />
<br />
I'll have to climb the mountain<br />
I can't move it all at once<br />
But I can climb and I can find a mine<br />
Go deep for the treasure I am seeking<br />
<br />
I'm climbing up the mountain<br />
On my own two feet<br />
I'm here right now on trembling knees<br />
I'm working working to find out what we need<br />
I'm working working to follow where you lead<br />
<br />Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-31352541174770529792014-03-19T14:18:00.000-07:002014-03-19T14:26:25.493-07:00(3) Come Out, Come Out<div class="MsoNormal">
So, suddenly I'm at %10. Ok, moving on along... I have about 5 more songs that I just need to get down in a rough form like what's here. No, not perfection, just some thoughts about opening up and coming out of hiding and facing the things I perceive as being dangerous and scary.<br />
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Give me an open heart</div>
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O my Creator</div>
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Give me an open heart – and mind</div>
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I have spent too long</div>
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Hiding from the dangers</div>
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I want to come out now – It’s time</div>
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Come out, Come out wherever you are</div>
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Come out, Come out, Come out</div>
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Come out, Come out, wherever you are</div>
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Wherever you are, come out</div>
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Give me an open heart and clear sight to see what really is</div>
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Give me the courage to let go of what I cannot nourish</div>
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Give me an open heart</div>
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O my Creator</div>
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Give me an open heart – and mind</div>
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I have spent too long</div>
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On jealousy and anger</div>
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I want to come out now – It’s time</div>
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<br /></div>
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Come out, Come out wherever you are</div>
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Come out, Come out, Come out</div>
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Come out, Come out, wherever you are</div>
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Wherever you are, come out</div>
Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-17336202202535046932014-02-26T11:41:00.000-08:002014-03-26T13:32:16.762-07:00(2) Momma's Old Robe (Mom Power)Hello Listeners,<br />
<br />
So, here is song number 2 about a month after song number 1. I know, I know. How am I going to get to 30 songs by 30 (June 4th, 2014) at this rate? Well. I'm going to keep trying. I'm putting a little more time crunch on myself and hoping that that will help. No, I didn't do that on purpose! I intended to have at least 5 or 6 songs up by this point. I've worked on five or six songs since I posted the other, but I guess songs just like life and just like people...take their own sweet time sometimes.<br />
<br />
My family gets the first songs because I promised them songs for Christmas. This one is for my mom. I love you Mom. I made sure to use an imperfect recording, taken with my iPhone as I sit here at my gold desk in my work alcove. It's raining in Berkeley today. It's a work-in-progress. Enjoy. I'm enjoying making it.<br />
<br />
<br />
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Mama Mama</div>
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I never stop seeing you there</div>
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In my favorite thing to wear</div>
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Your old terrycloth bathrobe I love it so</div>
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It’s really grown quite ragged lilac turning grey<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Ratty shabby shaggy but I love it anyway</div>
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Cause I see you in me in the mirror</div>
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Robed in faded lilac standing there</div>
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To see your signature sparkle come about</div>
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I just smile at myself so my dimples come out</div>
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I am you with some of me mixed in</div>
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Being in your robe’s like being in your skin</div>
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Your scent and mine combine within</div>
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<br /></div>
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You gave a new blue fleece robe for Christmas</div>
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It’s long and warm and such a nice gift but</div>
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This new one has a tag from Eddie Bauer</div>
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and the old one has the mom power</div>
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<br /></div>
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I wear it early in the mornin and late into the night</div>
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when I put the kettle on and turn off the kitchen light</div>
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I will wear slippers but I rarely wear my socks</div>
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as I creep outside in your robe to my mailbox</div>
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And I keep all the little notes you send me</div>
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Like “hope you enjoy setting up housekeeping.”</div>
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I wear your robe everyday</div>
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Don’t know what I’ll do when it breaks</div>
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<br /></div>
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I see you in me in the mirror</div>
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Robed in faded lilac standing right there</div>
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To see your signature sparkle come about</div>
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I just smile at myself so my dimples come out</div>
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I am you with some of me mixed in</div>
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Being in your robe’s like being in your skin</div>
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You scent and mine combine within</div>
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<br /></div>
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I wear your robe everyday</div>
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Don’t know what I’ll do when it breaks</div>
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Mama Mama</div>
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Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-18352139276584950182014-02-14T08:06:00.000-08:002014-02-14T08:06:24.477-08:00Harder than I thoughtIn-Between<br />
<br />
It's harder than I thought<br />
Now that I've applied the pressure<br />
I got a little hot<br />
A little feverish<br />
No, not tonight, sorry<br />
I don't feel well<br />
I can't find the time in-between<br />
to mean what I want to mean<br />
with these words<br />
<br />
My time is thick<br />
How can I get out from under it?<br />
<br />
A good friend says<br />
"Make it a sketchbook<br />
And then share it later<br />
It's hard to produce<br />
When all the pressure<br />
is on you"<br />
It's true<br />
wise words<br />
wise woman<br />
<br />
My broken tea kettle<br />
is not going to whistle<br />
if I don't fix it first<br />
<br />
Or maybe<br />
if I just set it on the heat<br />
creep away<br />
and eat<br />
a hard-boiled egg<br />
(protein is always good for breakfast)<br />
suddenly it will whistle<br />
loud enough<br />
to wake the whole house<br />
<br />Mindyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17758442932313525058noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7896826378662639776.post-44640930675178961412014-01-29T14:07:00.000-08:002014-02-12T10:25:16.284-08:00(1) Song for Chris<iframe frameborder="no" height="166" scrolling="no" src="https://w.soundcloud.com/player/?url=https%3A//api.soundcloud.com/tracks/132070017%3Fsecret_token%3Ds-STXOL&color=ff5500&auto_play=false&hide_related=false&show_artwork=true" width="100%"></iframe>
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Song for Chris</div>
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I can’t protect you anymore</div>
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You make your own decisions</div>
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and weather your own storm</div>
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We’re not friends in the same way now</div>
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We’re no longer childhood playmates</div>
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Building huts around the house</div>
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You’re still my little brother</div>
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Born when I was four</div>
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When you stand there crying</div>
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Bruised at my back door</div>
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I see the little boy with oval glasses</div>
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Outer space was once his passion</div>
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I can’t protect you anymore</div>
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You fight your own battles now</div>
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and open your own doors</div>
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I never could catch you when you fell</div>
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Broke your collar bone and your heart</div>
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But my heart broke as well</div>
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You’re still my little brother</div>
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Born when I was four</div>
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When you stand there crying</div>
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Bruised at my back door</div>
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Outer space was once his passion</div>
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I can’t protect you anymore</div>
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Go and make your own mistakes</div>
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and weather your own storm</div>
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I can’t take away the bruises that you get</div>
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I can’t stop your lips from quivering</div>
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When you lose control of it</div>
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My wish for you</div>
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However low you get</div>
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Don’t let the light in your eyes go out</div>
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My wish for you<br />
However low you get<br />
Don't let the light in your eyes go out</div>
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